Missing my Mom....

My Mom in prayer Dec 2010 NYC Church of St Francis of Assisi 

I have titled this photo Wasted Prayers.

Don't know why today is the day I decided to start a blog. Today actually got off to a rough start. Forget that I was driving my 13 yr old off to his first day of High School, fears amplified by the fact that he has Aspergers. That actually went off without a hitch. What has totally rocked me is after I left him at the drop-off with his instructional assistant I bent over to pick up my cell and call my Mom. My Mom passed away 8 weeks ago from lung cancer. Those I know who have lost a loved one, including my husband had tried to warn me this moment was coming but you can never prepare for how you will feel when you realize that person is no longer here and you can't share the big moments with them anymore. So here I sit 2 hours later still crying and feeling sorry for myself and for my mom for missing the moments I know she wanted so  desperately to live for.
So perhaps I have answered my own question, maybe I started this blog today to help me pass through this cloud of mourning. Time and the computer keys will tell....